Under Cover

I remember the first time we met the way you walked the way you talked the way you told your jokes the way you made me laugh the way you laughed your eyes, your eyebrows, your mustache, your lips the way you smiled to me for the first time how adorable it was. I thought about how could you fall in love with me and me too we fall in a field of beautiful daisy. I love you I do I always do but you did. I love the way you hold my hand tightly like you will hold it as long as the world exist but no longer now. I love the way you kiss me in forehead even it for the last or least. I love the way you understand me no matter how selfish I love you but then you gave up. I let you I couldn’t force you I gave you more space because I love you. Whether I stay or go please don’t forget how ardently I have loved you. And please don’t push me out and never let me back in. I feel so selfish to l...

When you lose someone, someone you love, when they break your heart, it's the hardest thing you could ever go trough. and no matter how much time has passed, it never really goes away. you may think you're getting better, but then you get a flashback, or hear a song that reminds you of a memory. and it hits you all over again, all at once, like a stab in the chest. you fall apart, for the hundredth time. and you feel like you just want to crawl under a rock and never come out. you love this person with all of your heart, even though you know you shouldn't. they hurt you worse than you've ever been hurt. they stole your happiness. but yet, you still want them, and only them. other people come along and give you chances to move on, but you know you don't want to. it upsets you that you might be moving on, because you promised you never would. and even if they broke all their promises, you want to keep yours. on top of that, you're terrified, terrified of getting ...

We hurt each other even in silent. We don’t need to say the words, our eyes were filled with pain already. Maybe it was love. Maybe it was lust. And maybe what hurt the most was the high expectation. The way we hurt each other just to show how we loved each other was tiring, wasn’t it? Memories fade as time goes by or gone, just like that, with no trace. But we always remember how it hurt. I hurt you. You hurt me more. Then we said goodbye when all we wanted to say was ‘forgive me’.The ego has landed. I wanted to say ‘please stay’ but the words froze in my brain, leave me wondering: what did we do wrong? Maybe you will never know that… I’m falling endlessly. I’m falling hopelessly. You’re not there to catch me. When you hugged me, it felt like I’ll always be alright. Now that you left, it feels like nothing will ever be okay. For example, I can never listen to Michael Buble anymore. His Home hurts too much since you’re not the home anymore. And you know what? I am never alone. Not...