Worst thing

When you lose someone, someone you love, when they break your heart, it's the hardest thing you could ever go trough. and no matter how much time has passed, it never really goes away. you may think you're getting better, but then you get a flashback, or hear a song that reminds you of a memory. and it hits you all over again, all at once, like a stab in the chest. you fall apart, for the hundredth time. and you feel like you just want to crawl under a rock and never come out. you love this person with all of your heart, even though you know you shouldn't. they hurt you worse than you've ever been hurt. they stole your happiness. but yet, you still want them, and only them. other people come along and give you chances to move on, but you know you don't want to. it upsets you that you might be moving on, because you promised you never would. and even if they broke all their promises, you want to keep yours. on top of that, you're terrified, terrified of getting hurt again. but it's not like it matters anyway, at the end of the day you're still thinking about the person who has left you completely broken. you don't want to miss them anymore, you don't want to love them anymore, but you know you always will.

it was the worst thing you ever feel, wasn't it? and, ya, it happened to me. it has been one year and i still love him like no one else could. still loves all of him. love his curve and all his edges, his perfect imperfections. i know he's not perfect (like me, and like all of us, right?) but i love him in spite of the fact that he's not. really stuck in there, i don't even know what should i do...
but i have read this quote:

and i wish she's right.

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